XenShin QuaH’s Blog

My end year exam is coming very soon(about 2 days) .. This is the only obstacle that I need to pass for this year. Although I hav studied quite a number of pages but I’m still scared. Everytime i open a book, I will start to flashback the past things I have studied. Is that what people called last minute study?? I guess so..

This thing has been hunting me for past few week.. I can’t even sleep well.. What is wrong with me? Am I too pressurize or what? Can anyone give me counselling? Haih.. I;m scared one day I might collapse.. Now I started thinking whether am I suitable to study form6 or not.. I really can’t cope very well.. Not only that , my teacher is applying more pressure when she complains me(physics teacher).. Do they know how heavy is our burden as a student? I myself already hav problem on coping up and nevermind, at home I tried to self study in order to cope up. Yet, my teacher complains me..

Is that a mistake for being slow?? I’m just telling the truth to my teacher.. What kind of world is it now? I really dunno what else I can do.. Even though ppl see me very relax.. But the fact is, I’m really really pressurize ..

Life can mean a lot of things. Life can sometimes be sweet or even sour. In my opinion, life is meaningless without friends, family and special partner. without them, your life will be surely bitter… no matter how many sweets u take also it wont make a differece… my life now already contain family and freinds… but there is still something missing..

im actually lacking of one more things that is _____ .i know its not the correct time to hav now… but i cant control myself.. although i know someone is treating me very coldly but i try to convince myself  that it was just my illusion.. many people advices me to gave up but i just keep my fingers crossed hoping the day will come.. even if i wanted to do so also it is kind of hard because it is easy said than done… life is sO0oo… miserable for me nowadays especially when i just screwed up most of my exam paper.. is it the effect of courting someone?? i dont think so.. coz i know i manage myself very well.. when it is time to study, i will study… and when i hav free time, i’ll find someone to chat..

can anyone drop by to give me some advice?? at least im exposed with option..